in solitude
I write
in loneliness
I feel
is all I know
all that encompasses me
I reach in
pull from within
the hardest things to say
the hardest things
to realize
in my words
I transfer the pain
the paper has no feeling
the thoughts flowing
through hands
and actions
of all that
I hide within
none dare to
take a peek
for fear of what awaits
they look so shocked
they are taken away
to worlds I create
and tear down
with my next days thoughts
what can seem so sweet
can turn to bile
stuck in your throat
taking your breath
in one fell swoop
and I never even
stop to think
in every little phrase
or subtle missive
you see yourself
just a bit
and the embers
smolder
as your thoughts
turn to anger
and somehow
you see the beauty
in the words and I
whole again
until it overtakes me
transforming
and I find myself
a clean sheet
starting over
just a pen in hand
and my heart on display
rediscovering
me all over
again

Restless Mind

and now
I never felt
so alone
I wished
upon stars
for just one moment
just one day
to show you
my heart
my mind
I got a glimpse
of you
in three minutes
and was pushed aside
for reasons
I cant figure
maybe was my voice
maybe was nothing
are you shy
are you scared
do you just not care
what I see in you
I am alone in this
I toss
I turn
still I sleep
still I wake
even these visions
of you
like sugarplums
dancing
in my head
how did it sour
almost decayed
and I just picked
from the tree
maybe Eve can explain
how the most delectable
of fruits
contain
the bitterness
of life