Excerpts - Redefining Eden (1982-2004)
Actual Shadows
As my eyes opened
today
I reached for
the shadows
left from my dreams
you were so alive
touching
almost lifelike
in a childish sort of way
your smile
your scent
almost live
and I ached
to hold you
to touch you
to feel your warmth
close to me
once again
I awoke
from darkness
and
see the light within you
showing me the way
guiding me
slowly
but without caution
or despair
I am not afraid
I am not weary
I am ready
to attack
with the knowledge
and strength in my heart
to conquer the hurdles
for you
for us
you are the light
I will
walk
towards
Demons
They find me
no matter where I hide
ripping at my soul
as I run for cover
is there anyway
I can fight them
without losing a bit of my heart
without finding my thoughts
were unfounded
I always knew they were there
yet
I chose to ignore
the scars they leave
are invisible
but they are there
when I strip down
I see the marks left
the wounds weep
and yet I don't want them to heal
sometimes the open sore
is all thats left to remind you
that you do heal
in time
Because It's True
everything
you know
and felt
is true
my heart is cluttered
my heart is crammed
you have seen through
and your gut
is wrenched
who I am
is
who you see
deep down
your instincts
your depth
takes the layers
like an onion
so clear
all the way thru
maybe
getting clearer
as you shed to the core
you saw long ago
in a moment
before I even realized
and you hated me
before I even acted
now
your misgivings
your doubt
come to life
and I wonder
why cant I forgive
why cant I look past
life is short
cracks in the road
trip you up sometimes
but you almost
never fall
the end
is actually
a new beginning
will you accept me
will you accept us
as friends
as parents
and say goodbye
to
what once was
my heart is cluttered
my heart is crammed
because
its true
Ode to Brown Eyes
They sit across me
staring down
with heartfelt
happiness
and a side of sorrow
they see me for the first time
in a light
never cast before
with shadows of blue
basking the moment
Together we find
in perhaps a moment of silence
the sounds of love arising
deafening at first
like a battered drum
with no rhythm
that slowly finds
its melody
hiding in the
thoughts
of two
as they gaze
and see looking back
what they
always searched for
anyway
The following is one of my personal favorites. This poem was inspired by a beautiful instrumental song called "Warm Air" by Vanessa Mae.
Be your Strength
Can I be your strength
To love again
Can I be your strength
To feel again
Like
You never knew
Before
Can I be your strength
To breathe
Can I be your strength
to carry on
Like you need to do
To feel
All that
I
Have to give
I have never known a love
Like this
So strong
So deep
It encompasses me
It draws me in
And I feel like drowning
In the waves
Your love creates
Within
Can you be the strength
I need
To survive this
Can you be the strength
I need
To live again
All along I knew
That this was
Real
And now we have to breathe
And now we have to breathe